Something To Regret

[jynfan]

This is the first time i actually let someoneto read a fanfiction i wrote so i really hope you enjoy it

This story takes place in the actual time with all the rumors going on and the secrets behind them

Reminder: This story has nothing to do with the people mentioned and anythingrelated to them is only made for entertaining :)

[jynfan]

Chapter One

It was late at night I was driving towards… nothing, Jessica and I had a huge fight that night because she admitted she felt attraction for Johnny N. she told me that some of the rumors that had been in the tabloids where in fact true I didn’t wanted to know how far things had gotten between them all I knew is that I was devastated how could she do that to me after all we’ve been through she couldn’t have done this to me I loved her I was hearth broken I went over to a coffee shop I didn’t wanted to drink any alcohol I turned off my cell phone and my mind of all of this in my head I just could picture Jessica and this man kissing and holding each other but I had to let it go I ordered a cup of coffee and then a beautiful girl caught my eye she was beautiful her long brown hair the most amazing green eyes, she saw me looking and smiled at me so did I she walk over to were I was sitting she introduce herself
“Hi I’m Emily”
“Nick” I shook her hand and said “nice to meet you”
“So Nick where are you from?”
“Well I’m from Cincinnati but I moved here a couple of years ago”
We talked for hours I really felt attracted to this girl who was a lawyer she has her own office she was amazing so I asked her out she accepted she was beautiful all of he we hit it of so well that I forgot about Jessica for a moment I was happy I couldn’t stop thinking about Emily and as I drove home with a smile from ear to ear I was decided to move out of the house and go back to my condo I stood in front of the house that has been my home for almost three years and as I walked inside I saw Jessica sitting in the sofa crying I felt bad for a moment and then I realized that it didn’t matter anymore she was the one who cheated on me and I couldn’t stand the fact of another man touching her I just couldn’t and that’s when she saw my and said “thank god you’re home” she ran over to where I was and hugged me I didn’t move my hands I didn’t hugged her back and then I pulled her away from me and went upstairs grabbed some clothes and went back to the front door suddenly I pulled her in to my arms and kissed her with such p[arse]ion and love that left her breathless but even do she couldn’t breath she didn’t want to let go because we knew this was a goodbye kiss..

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[jynfan]

Chapter Two

Jessica knew what was about to happen and stared at my eyes for a minute as I said
“Jessica I love you always remember that”
“Nick stop it please” she said crying
“ Jessica I didn’t do anything … but before I leave I want to ask you a question and if you love me you’ll tell me the truth…”
“What Nick?”
“Did you kissed him?”
“Nick don’t ask me that please…”
“Thank you that’s all I need to know…” I said turning and walking away from her for good

It had p[arse]ed a month now I was in love with Emily she knew all I’ve been through and still loved me I read in the tabloids that Jessica wasn’t dating anyone but that didn’t matter she broke my hearth and soul I since her wasn’t able to love anyone as I loved her there was a place in my hearth reserved only for her the only one I would ever love in a way that nothing could compare she had filled my hearth up so badly that when she did what she did was as if something inside me had been ripped and left a huge emptiness that no one could ever fill I know I loved Emily I really loved her more than anything and I felt incredible attracted to her but deep very deep inside I love Jessica
It was a Sunday night when it happened Emily and I started to make out the things become more and more p[arse]ionate and I couldn’t resist her I don’t know what happened but we started to take our clothes and I imagined I was with Jessica and made the most amazing love to her I felt like I was with Jessica and in my head I was… she was so beautiful Jessica… when we finished she said “Nick that was… amazing…incredible I’ve never felt that way with anyone you were amazing…”I wasn’t paying attention to her at all I was thinking that was wrong I felt like I was betraying MY wife the woman that completes me… my friend… my lover… my life… my everything.

I couldn’t spend the night spend the night with her spending the night with someone is one of the most intimate things to not even having sex was this intimate, thank god Drew called me and said that we needed to talk about Jessica and I told him I’ll be coming right away Drew said it wouldn’t be necessary but I said “no really I could come over” I hung up and kissed Emily and said to her
“Hon… Drew called me he had an emergency I’m sorry I’ll called you tomorrow”
she kissed me one more time and said “bye”

[jynfan]

Chapter Three

I was driving towards my condo because Drew and I said we’ll meet there but on the drive I could feel guilt washing over me I was angry at myself I hated myself at the moment I slept with this girl I felt dirty.
As I arrived I saw Drew standing in the front door and said
“Really I could just told you over the phone”
“Drew…” I wanted to tell him but I couldn’t and asked “What do you wanted to tell me”
“Well Lea told me to talk to you because well Jessica is… well look she is not herself”
“What?”
“Nick she started to date… a very ugly guy”
“She started to date… him?”
“Look that’s not the case… her parents are very worried about her you should go visit her Nick”
“I can’t is to hard for me to do it… I’ve a girlfriend that I love”
“You really do?”
“Yes”
“Nick you love her once with all your hearth please go visit her”
“Ok I’ll do it”
“Thank you”
We said our goodbyes and then I immediately went inside took a shower and try to sleep but I couldn’t stop thinking about her…and him… and then both of them together in the bed once was our bed… and Emily and what I just have done to her I really didn’t love her the way I loved Jessica … I was lying to her… and finally sleep took over me and also regret I dream about Jessica and the look on her eyes if she found out about what I just did… I knew she would hate me.
The next day I was awake by the sound of the phone ringing it was Emily
“Hi handsome”
“Hi there gorgeous”
“Nick last night was amazing I missed you all night”
“I know I’m sorry”
“Don’t be well I’ve got to go to work I love you”
“I love you too”
I took a shower and a because Jessica wasn’t in the house by the time I decided to get a hair cut and it was same as it was when we meet and a leather jacket with a black shirt and black suit pants
I drove over to the house and knocked on her door she finally opened it she looked more beautiful than ever she was wearing sweats and no make up she looked over at meand finally said
“Nick…”

[jynfan]

Chapter Four

“Hey...”
“Hi…Why did you knock on the door?”
I looked at her confused
“What do you mean?”
She moved aside letting me in
“Well Nick this is also your house”
“So why it doesn’t feel like it?”
I saw Jessica get teary eyed and I walked over to her and said
“I’m sorry I didn’t meant it”
“don’t be I deserve it”
“No you don’t” she looked at me so lovingly that I couldn’t take it guilt took over me
“Jess what’s wrong?”
“What do you mean?”
”Well you’ve been acting strange according to some resources and people are getting worry about you”
“What do you care?!”
“Don’t say that… I care more than you think”
“Do you?! Did you care when you leave?! No I think you did, did care about the nights I’ve spend crying myself to sleep telling myself to get over it? No I don’t think you did!”
“I care more than you would now I can’t stop thinking about you! Do you know how much it hurt me to imagine yourself with another man! No you didn’t I told myself I was happy with Emily but I wasn’t do you now how much I hate myself right now! If I could take back time I wouldn’t be so stupid to do what I’ve done things I’m not proud of! Things that haunt me day and night! Things that I know if you knew I did you would hate me!” by that time after she yelled at me how hurt she was I couldn’t take it and after what I just said I had tears in my eyes and then I feel someone hugging me and I was hugging her to and crying on her shoulder she told me she loved me no matter what and suddenly before I knew it she was looking in my eyes and asked me
“Did you sleep with her?”
“Last night I did but there was one thing she didn’t knew”
“What?”
“That in that bed there weren’t only two people”
“Nick…”
“I wasn’t even looking at her all I could think about was… you”
She kissed me with such love and tenderness that make me feel complete again and then I asked
“What about you what did you do with him?”

[StargateGirl]

I like what you have so far. It's really good.

[jnd98forever]

omg i think i might :cries: lol here goes emotional me...well great job with the story i really like it!!!!

[nslfan4life]

I really like this story. It's very different from most Jessica and Nick stories. Keep it going!

[jynfan]

thanx i'm glad you enjoy it! :)

[nickandjessica]

i like this story update soon

[Kristen07]

I like this story :) Please post more soon :)

[nickandjessica]

i love this story.update soon i am dieing to find out what happends

[jynfan]

Sorry to keep everyone waiting the next update will be on monday around 1:00 so stay tuned :wink:

[nickandjessica]

i hope you update soon i am dieing to find out what happends

[nickandjessica]

update soon

[jynfan]

I wasn't feeling the concept of this story anymore but nickandjessica made me change my mind I know this part may be a little boring and short sorry

Chapter Five

She looked at me and said
“We just kissed… nothing more…” I had tears in my eyes guilt, regret mixed up can be a very cruel punishment I looked at her in the eye and said “do you love him?”
“No, maybe just attraction but I could never love him the way I love you, It would never be the same… never, it was just a moment of weakness something I also regret, I wish I could be strong but I just let everybody get to me all those things I should’ve ignored but I’m only human and I should’ve trusted you, you never gave me any reasons to doubt you”
“We both made mistakes…”
“What went wrong? Is it that we don’t love each other? I know I love you but things change…”
“Remember when we got married Jess? We used to be so… happy nothing could get to us but everything changed with time we barely see each other our jobs don’t let us spend time together”
“Remember when we were dating? You were with the band but we always talk over the phone and every time we had the chance we traveled to see each other?”
“Yeah… maybe we need time to rediscover why we fell inlove”
“Do you need time?
“No… I know why I love you, you are the most beautiful women I’ve ever meet, I love your personality, your way to see life, that even on your worst day you always come home with a smile, I love you… all of you, maybe the problem is that we don’t show it like we use to we took each other for granted, we lost the p[arse]ion”
“We are busy with our jobs and we’re barely see each other, I think that what we need is always make time for a date a call anything”
“Do you want to give it a try?”
“Do you”

[nickandjessica]

thank you this is a good story please update soon

[katelyn11c]

i like it :D
update soon!

[nickandjessica]

i cant wait to see what happends update soon

[jynfan]

Chapter Six

They were silent for a minute until Nick broke the ice
"I know I love you, and I would definetely want to give it a try if you want"
Jessica stared at him for a minute and said smiling
"I do, more than anything because I love"
They kissed for a moment and then stood up, suddenly he remembered something... Emily.
At the moment he was happy to get his wife back but he also knew that he couldn't do that to Emily and then he knew he had to talk to her, how could he say to her ' hey we have to broke up because I'm back with my wife' she would definetely slap him but if he broke up with her at the moment he knew she was going to feel used and that wasn't the kind of man Nick was.
"Jessica... I need to go"
"What?" she was getting angry
"I need to do something"
Jessica just looked mad at him and shocked that he had to leave after they just got back together
"Why?"
"Jessica, I love you but I haven't broke up with Emily"
She knew him all too well to know the kind of man he was, it was something she admired because he was always a gentleman, she walked towards him and kissed him and said
"Don't take long"
"I won't" he said smiling at her and walking through the door



PS: Sorry I haven't update, but now I promise I'll do it every 1 or 2 days

[nickandjessica]

good story update soon

[nickandjessica]

Originally posted by nickandjessica@9/10/05, 03:46pm
good story update soon
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update soon

[marie]

can't wait for more:)